i wear black a lot
dont stereotype me.
music is my life.
i love to help people.
i am an amazing advice-giver.
ive been through lots, so mostly the advice i give is from experience.
i used to get high.
i used to cut.
i used to be anorexic
i used to be bulimic
i used to be athiest
im telling you this, because people change.
im none of that anymore.
i live for God.
im glad i can connect with other Christians too!
so anyway
im kenna
i
Im 15
born 4-12-92
i am pro-life! that is a MAJOR part or who i am. if you dont know what that is, google it.
i beleiive in gender equity.
i also believe in racial equity
idk if that is an actual term, but whatever.
i support my friends in everything.
music is my life
i write
i want to direct and produce movies when i grow up
i will use them to send messages to america's youth. to help them. to change the media's unrealistic ideals on beauty and such...
my favorite colors are black, crimison, grey, and white.
my favorite animals are dogs, geese, tigers, komodo dragons, unicorns, and butterflies.
im a pyro maniac, and a masochist. <3 fire and paaaaaaiiin.
i have an amazing girlfriend, my Mollykinz!
i do all my own peircings. i have done my ears, eyebrow, belly button, lip, and tongue
i love spreading Lupus awareness.
a loved one died from it.
im organizing a "walk for the cure" to raise money for lupus research.
www.cure4lupus.org
oh yeah, i used to have another xianz, the username was smiley_faces_rock or something. havent been on it in forever.
so yeah you might know me from there, as karen. i didnt wanna tell ppl my real name haha.
well anyway.... dont be afraid to talk....i may be fifteen but i do know for a fact tht i can be more influential than several people who are older than me.
so if you have a problem, or need advice, or just want to talk to me cuz i sound amazing, go for it.
i wont be on here much, im not that into these things, but im always emailing.
kennacoconut@yahoo.com
i don't get on here much.
hit my up on myspace!
myspace.com/xoxdamselxinxdistressxox
You Are 60% Emo
You're not emo, but you're plenty thoughtful, unique, and even a little angsty.
Are You Emo?
You're a Confident Chica
You're a total superstar - and you know it
Even if no one else does (in which case you'll remind them)
You hate to admit that you're wrong... even to yourself
Your life is great - and you've thankful for every great thing you have
Are You a Confident Woman?
You Are An Extrovert!
You have a ton of friends, perhaps more friends than anyone you know.
Nothing to do on Friday night? No problem for you to find the action.
You're friendly, easy to know, and you seem to get along with almost everyone.
You love to express yourself - and everyone knows a good deal about you.
Whether you're giving your opinion or sharing your dreams, you don't keep anything in.
Are You An Extroverted or Introverted Girl?
Your Spicy Score: HOT!
You're confident, sexy, and not afraid to go after any guy you want.
You can catch almost any guy's attention, and you're proud of it.
And while you may be too smoldering for some men...
They're not the type of guy you want anyway!
Are You a Spicy Chica?
Your Biblical Name Is...
Bettina Zula
You will not live to see the end of times.
What's Your Biblical Name?
Your Superpower Should Be Super Speed
You're quick witted and fast to act.
You're mind works at warp speed. From your perspective, everyone else is living in slow motion.
You get so much done, people have accused you of not sleeping.
Definitely not a couch potato, you feel a bit crazy if you're not busy doing something.
Why you would be a good superhero: You're be the first on the scene... and likely to finish the job before anyone else shows up
Your biggest problem as a superhero: Being bored by everyone else. Including other superheroes!
What Should Your Superpower Be?
Your Punk Band Name Is...
The Drunk Dinosaur
What's Your Punk Band Name?
Your Kiss is Red
You are intense about kissing but easily distracted.
You kiss for attention, power, and passion.
It doesn't take a lot for you to want to kiss someone.
If you see a kissing opportunity, you always go for it!
Kissing Type: Kissaholic (admit it!)
People See Your Kisses as: Seductive
You Kiss Best With: An Orange Kisser
Stay away from: A Blue Kisser
What Color Is Your Kiss?
Your Vibe Is Somewhat Sexy
On a good day, you're the sexiest woman in the world
But on a bad day, you can't help but feel a little average
Try to remember the times you've felt the sexiest...
And keep that attitude even on the worst of days
What Kind of Sexy Girl Vibe Do You Have?
Your Gemstone is Ruby
Daring, enthusiastic, and spontaneous.
You are energetic and passionate, with an appetite for life.
What Gemstone Are You?
You Are a Good Girl!
You're into fun - but it has to be your own brand of fun
Drinking? No thanks. You rather spend your time differently...
Whether it's talking with friends, taking up a hobby, or reading
You're not the type to socialize just for socializing's sake!
Are You a Party Girl?
You Are a Coy Flirt!
You're not so much a flirt as the type of girl who draws flirts in
While you look like you're just relaxing, secretly you've got your game on
A little look here, a little wink there... you give men the encouragement they crave
And in return, they flirt up a storm with you - while you just sit and smile
What Kind of Flirty Girl Are You?
Your Inner Eye Color Is Brown
You're smart, thoughtful, and the ideal woman for most men
You are kind and easy to trust. Men open up to you like no one else.
It's this inner warmness that attracts guys - and makes you an instant soulmate.
What Color Eyed Woman Are You Really?
GRRRR my eyes are BLUE
You Are Not Prissy
You're the furthest thing from a princess - and you probably stay far away from any princess types you know.
You have an easygoing approach to living. It doesn't take a lot to make you happy.
And when life requires it, you're ready to get your hand a little dirty.
There's no problem you're too prissy to tackle!
How Prissy Are You?
You Can Make 63% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You
Your seduction skills are practically legendary. You know how to close the deal.
Just don't let someone you're really into get the better of you!
As long as you keep up your end of the flirting game, you'll get the prize at the end.
Can You Make Anyone Fall in Love With You?
haha oh yeah I WIN
Your Mind is 55% Cluttered
Your mind is starting to get cluttered, and as a result, it's a little harder for you to keep focused.
Try to let go of your pettiest worries and concerns. The worrying is worse than the actual problems!
wow sorry i havent updated.
well this week was crazy.
so much drama, so little time.
jorden came over on monday, made it apparent that he hates me best friend. i got sooo pissed. i couldnt talk to him, i wouldnt touch him, nothing. i just stared at him. he had called her and said some very rude things. i went to bed thinking that my best friend hated me.
i was very upset.
then later that night [[i had been up till like 11:30 anyway] a friend IMed me tellin me she is runnin away. i had to talk her outta that. i didnt get done till about 12:30ish. then i had to do homework. i got to bed around 1-1:30 am.
on tuesday one of my friends's friends tried to kill himself, and it messed up my freind.
she was crying durring lunch. but he is back at school now. please pray for him.
another friend was upset because she was having a bad day, and she was also crying.
she is struggling with cutting, and is trying to quit.
i hope she can do it. i know how hard it is to quit.
on my way to class, i overheard a boy talking to his friends and then saying "thats retarded!" i hate that! retarded does NOT mean stupid!!!! i cornered him and yelled at him and told him to apologize.
then after lunch, jessica was upset because of boy and friend problems. i tried to talk her through it. its sounds like she is just stressed, but she knows what to do.
wednesday, i dont remember, but i guess it was good. oh yeah, it was BOW CHICKA CHOW WOW wednesday.
i have been doing the morning anouncements this week, and at the end the person usually says "have a great day" but i have been mixin it up. "have a magnificent monday, triumphant tuesday, bow chicka chow wow wednesday, enthusiastic thursday, and five-star friday"
today, was good!
everyoen was happy
the boy from lunch on tuesday who said retarded told his friends about it, and were saying retarded adn stuff to get me mad. so i pinned one against the wall and yelled at him.
they think its funny.
its not.
no, i didnt hurt them, i wouldnt hurt a person. i just pushed him and raised my voice a lil. they thought it was hillarious.
its my best friends sweet sixteen =]
love to all
in second hour, the teacher made me take off the mask though =[
in sixth and eighth hour, the teachers didnt care so yay
but i had a headache so bad in second hour that i about cried. it was my head neck and back
then in eighth hour it was still there. i dont take meds so i tried to sleep it away
but the teach threw a paper clip at me, and woke me up
so i resorted to two ibuprofens
i cant beleive i did that!
but i guess they worked
anyway
in sixth hour we got into groups and worked on a study guide for a test
its gonna be hard
but its not for a week, so i can study =D
me and chrystal and adrianna and lee all talked, about bf and gf and stuff
me and chrystal never talked before, she is pretty cool!
then i kinda had boy probs, but i wasnt worried.
but me and alex did this thing to make him think im pissed
it worked!
***
i got home, fell asleep for evurrrrr
woke up twice to lisa [dad's g/f] yelling
woke up a third time cuz i had to go through my moms stuff
lisa kept calling it junk. w/e. my moms stuff is NOT junk.
and she is throwing away what i 'dont want'
its not that i dont want it, its just that... okayy, my room is in the LUANDRY room, and my brother sleeps on the couch. my dad JUST finished his room. which is a 7X7 ish shed behind the house.
mhm yeah, we have NO room for anything.
i took some of it, i wanna remember my mom
and then i dyed my hair. idk how it came out yet.. still drying.
i hope tomorrow was as good as the beginning of today, minus the headache and that teacher who didnt like my outfit and kept thinking of excuses to wanna send me to the office....
boys pants, one long black sock with skulls on teh ankes, one short blue sock [but i always mixmatch my sockx] a tiny coat [one of those short preppy jackets, but this one isnt preppy. its black. its in my prof pic] the tank top i slept in, two diff shoes, and my makeup was crazy. it was dark grey or blue or green all the lid and underneath the lid, pink on the sides, and blue on bottom like:
<o o>
except with blue underneath
i left third hour spanish early to get my last HPV shot.
why do i need to have it? i thought i only did if i had sex or something, which is something im not doing.
it hurt but oh wel
1st hour: civil war movie
3rd hour: entrevista de los muertos research
5th hour: got our semester project assignments
7th hour: felt smart cuz i was lik the only one who did the reading. and got more stuff that goes with my 1,000 word
essay X-[
lunch was good
and im dying my hair right now
funfnfun
i might post a pic l8r
hopefully it comes out right
im so tired
nighty night
i havent been eating lately
and last night i couldnt sleep at all.
so i went to school tired and hungry.
before i went to catch the bus i realized i lost five pounds.
WOW.
i mean, thats a LOT of weight, in jsut a few days.
so i eated breakfast and lunch at school. barely.
due to my past bulimic disorders, its hard to keep food down, but whatever.
but today was amazing.
1st hour- we get the project deadline extended 1 week!
2nd hour- we did nothing, and made the teacher mad, sorry teacher.
3rd hour- picked parners for a project. Entrevista de los muertos.
4th hour- study hall. read.
5th hour- watched a movie
6th hour- finished the experiment so i could raise my C =D
7th hour- found out my rough draft for my persuasive essay isnt due till tommrow. but i only have 896 words, i need 104 more.
8th hour- did some easy 8th grade algebra stuff, im in Pre- IB Algebra, come ON! but yeah, i guess i needed a break.
i cant beleive today was so amazing simple. we did NOTHING the WHOLE day! CRAZY! usually i come home with so so so so so so so much homework.
lucky me i guess.
i stayed after for ITS. i now have 13 pts, OH YEAH! at the end of the year i can be inducted!
then, i got home.
mood at this time: extremely pleased. happy!
and found out i might be going on BC. shoot. freak. shoot. freak. shoot. freak.
im censoring cuz i dont wanna offend anyone.
so i talked to my bff, and my bf, and they are like wtf cuz its crazy, im the LAST person to have sex.
ANYWAY, i was feelin better listenin to music, then i go to the bathroom and hear my dad and his gf fighting.
again.
*covers ears* LALALALALALALALA I CANT HEAR THE SCREAMING!
mood: emo. wants to cut. not myself, i want to cut.... LISA.
but i dont, im anti-violence.
i feel like throwing up.
im chilly.
sick, maybe, but i havent been sick since sixth grade so i reluctant to say i am sick.
have a splendid day =D
