Did you ever think your child would tell you if he had gay thoughts? He can have the desires for looking at guys as some boys do but too afraid to tell his parents lest they freak. I am in contact with one such lad whom has to lead 2 lives as he is afraid of his parents and is struggling with the issue and is very christain but does not know what to do.
I put my hand up in the air crying for someone to grab it and tell me everything is ok. I felt nothing, oh God I want to die so bad. I don't care if I have to overdose I want to kill myself. Your phone isn't on I don't know what to do. I don't know if I will kill myself tonight or not. My heart begs for love, it wants to be held. My hand wants to be held and my ears want to hear everything is alright. I am just so broken, and when you don't come back online I don't know what to do. I feel so bad within like I am just gutted and there is nothing left of me. I even tried to hold a Bible up close to me just for my heart. Let me die, let me die, let me die in my sleep God. Let me be in a place where I don't feel this pain.
