Theres lots too me...first of all, I am the most kind hearted person you will ever meet. I have a husband, and 3 kids. Two girls and one boy. God has brought me through lots in my life. It has been a tough road, but all in all, there is a reason for what Ive been through....I will write more here soon...
Axia College, University of Phoenix, Salish Kootenai College
Major
Public Administration/Business Management
Degree(s)
Associates
Year of degree
2008
Special Training
Lots
Blog Date: September 23, 2007
Today was a good day!! I ate the traditional fried chicken, with mashed potatoes, and creamed carrots, and punch! Good huh? Well yeah..coming from me the one who actually did not cook this entire dinner at all today! Wow,,,I am blessed to have a wonderful family who all serve God! It made me think today, on how blessed I really am. I could be a person who has a mom and dad who have a addiction, and never cared! My kids could be handicapped and hurt, or I myself, can be a addict in trouble with not a care in the world! But truley im blessed. Which now leads me to start thinking, that there are so many out in this world who do not have what I have! How can I be so selfish?? Yeah im blessed, but why not start to bless those who are less fortunate?? This has been ministered to my heart all day, and now is the time to start reacting! I have made up my mind! It is now time for me to be the blessing that God wants me too..even if its to get on my knees and pray for those who may be suffering and dont want to let anyone know! I better be on my knees more often for the hurt, the broken, the backslidden, and the Lost! If I cannot litterally get out there and hand that homeless person a dollar, then I best be in my prayer closet praying that someone will reach out to him! .....Some of us tend to get comfortable. a little tooo comfortable if you ask me! If we get in our comfort zones......we better check ourselves. Comfort is not good! and this also came to me.....If we are not under attack by the enemy....maybe we are following him??? Cause, im saying..I know its not a good thing to be under attack, but dont you think that if you are...then you are in the right spot in your walk with God??? Coz the devil dont like it when you wont operate for him right?? lol..well then..this is just something to stew on I guess!! God Bless all who read this..................
i THOUGHT ID COME WRITE HERE ABOUT HOW GOD HAS DONE A MIRACULOUS HEALING IN MY LIFE..BACK IN JAN OF 2004 I BEGAN TO HAVE FEELINGS LIKE I COULD NOT CATCH A FULL BREATH. I HAD GONE TO SEE A DOCTOR AND THE DOCTOR ENDED UP PRESCRIBING ME A ANXIETY MEDICATION, SAYING THAT IT WAS ALL IN MY HEAD, ESPECIALLY WHEN STRESS BUILDS UP. (I KNEW IN MY HEART THIS WAS NOT IT, BUT OH WELL) SO FOR THE NEXT 5 DAYS I BEGAN TO HAVE BREATHING PROBLEMS..STARTED OUT SMALL, THEN ACCLERATED TO A POINT WHERE GETTING UP TO GO DOWN THE HALLWAY WAS SCARY..IM ATALKING REAL SCARY!..FOR ANY OF YOU WHO HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED NOT BEING ABLE TO BREATH, WILL KNOW TOO THAT IS IS ONE OF THE MOST SCARY THINGS A HUMAN CAN FEEL..ITS VITAL FOR US TO FUNCTION, AND WITHOUT FRESH AIR AND OXYGEN, IT LITTERALLY FEELS LIKE DEATH IS UPON YOU AT ANY MOMENT..ANYWAY, ONE NIGHT I GOT UP AND WENT TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM CRYING(WELL TRYING, WITHOUT OXYGEN, CRYING IS ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE UNLESS ALL YOU DO IS SHED TEARS) AND THE DOCTOR CHECKED MY LEVEL OF OXYGEN AND SAID BASICALLY I WAS OK..RIGHT! I IMMEDIATELY GOT MAD AND TOLD HIM I WANTED MORE TESTS AND THAT FOLLOWING MORNIGN I WENT IN FOR TESTINGS OF VARIOUS KINDS...THENI WENT HOME..MY DOCTOR DID SAY IF ANYTHING CAME UP , HE WOULD GIVE ME A CALL..SURE ENOUGH I GOT MY PHONE CALL....I NEEDED TO BE SEEN AND WAS SCHEDULED BACK INTO HIS OFFICE...WHAT HE TOLD ME LITTERALLY SHOOK MY WORLD....HE SAID WITH THE X-RAYS AND BLOOD CARBON MONOXIDE LEVELS, AND THE PRINT OUTS FROM MY BREATH TESTS...I DISPLAYED WHAT HE CALLED "EMPHASEYMA" ....HE SAID IF I STARTED BACK SMOKING OR CONTINUES(I HAD QUIT 2YRS PRIOR TO MY DIAGNOSIS) I WOULD DEEFINATELY BE ON A OXYGEN TANK BY THE TIME I WAS 35. i AM 31...I REMEMBER MY MIND SWIRLING WITH FEAR..LIKE THE FEAR OF GOD..I THOUGHT THE WRATH OF HIM WAS UPON ME..BUT I REMEMBER THINKGING..I DO NOT HAVE THIS AND WILL NOT.....SO I WENT HOME AND WENT INTO DENIAL FOR SEVERAL MONTHS....I WAS ON 2 DIFFERENT KINDS OF INHALERS..ONE FOR EVERYDAY CONTROL OF BREATHING AND THE OTHER AS A BACKUP IF I HAD SOME TYPEOF ASHTMA ATTACK(I SHOULD MENTION THEY SAID I HAD THIS TOO, WHICH NO ONE IN MY FAMILY, NOR ME IN MY LIFE HAD EVER EXPERIENCED)..ONE DAY BEING FED UP WITH GUILT OF SMOKING AND THINKING IM SOO YOUN GTO BE LIVING UNDER SUCH A BURDEN, I BROUGHT THIS ILLNESS STRAIGHT TO THE THRONE..I GOT ON MY KNEES AND PRAYED..PRAYED LIKE I HAVE NEVER PRAYED AND CRIED TO GOD TO HEAL ME....FOR I KNEW HE KNEW MY PASSIONS AND DESIRES OF MY HEART..AND THAT IS TOO "SING". I ACCEPTED MY HEALING AND IT HAS BEEN ALMOST 3 YEARS LATER I HAVE TAKEN MYSELF OFF THE MEDS AND INHALERS AND LEAD AN ACTIVE LIFE, AND NOT ONCE HAVE HAD TO WORRY ABOUT HAVING A BREATHING PROBLEM..I WENT IN TO SEE MY DOCTOR AGAIN AND HE WONDERED WHY I QUIT TAKING MY MEDS IN SUCH A CRITICAL STATE.."I HAD TO BE TRUTHFUL ,AND TELL HIM THAT I BELIEVE IN A HIGHER AUTHORITY AND HE IS THE ONE WHO HAD HEALED ME..HE WAS NOT TOO HAPPY ABOUT THAT, BUT HAS ACCEPTED THAT. SEE I FURTHERMORE DO NOT NEED A DOCTOR TO TELL ME IM HEALED WHEN , SIMPLY MY FAITH TELLS IT ALLLL....PRAISE GOD FOR THIS HEALING AND MAY EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU WHO READ THIS BE BLESSED BY IT, AND I PRAY THAT EACH OF YOU WILL KNOW THAT GOD'S WORD SAYS..IF WE HAVE FAITH THE SIZE OF A MUSTARD SEED, WE CAN MOVE MOUNTAINS.....THATS A PROMISE FROM GOD AND ONE TO NOT BE OVERLOOKED..EXCERSICE YOUR FAITH IN JESUS, AND WATCH WHAT HE CAN DO..ONE MORE THINGS ID LIKE TO ADD....I CANT REMEMBER WHAT BOOK AND VERSE THIS IS IN..ILLHAVE TO LOCATE IT, BUT "FAITH IS THE SUBSTANCE OF THINGS HOPED FOR...THE EVIDENCE OF THINGS UNSEEN, WITHOUT FAITH, WE CAN DO NOTHING...WITH FAITH, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE." AMEN..
Well i sit here tonight and go into deep thought as i always doo..lol.."My thoughts are not yours....." the lord tells me..so i began to think ..and ask.."what do you mean lord? Im gently reminded of yesterday, when all i did was cry..oh my gosh.. i could of caused a flood..lol, but i did question,,why that day, was especially lonely for me... my poor cuz sat in a room when i sat quitely in mine, trying to stiffle the cries that were soo deep within me..I thought.." Im going to lose it with all this stress...HAHA..But the thing was what stress???lol Crazy..there was none, i am a completely happy woman, with everything i can ask for , and nothing is in my way to make me fall..soooo what is going on? Ok..i took my feelings for the moment and created a situation that does not EVEN..exist! (Called Imaginations).. I actually reacted in the flesh, and not in the spirit!..Ahaha now i get it...I hear those very words again, with such clarity and now have the most knowledgable understanding and is right in front of me....INTERCESSOR... I was not unhappy with my surroundings nor my enviroment, but simply feeling what God has layed in my heart to do for Him and that is cry out unto the ones who are hurting and who may even be in danger with thier lives or spirtually..( Imay never know). I love how God opens up our minds and allows each of us to grasp the understanding of what we may not figure out for the moment! Thankyou Jesus for you have opened my eyes , and opened my heart and brought me to another level, in my walk with You!
Okidoke...I just sent her a welcome note and said Hi...I almost thought you were playing Cupid until I saw her age...lol..she is old enough to be my daughter...if I had a Child at the age of 14..LOL
I hope are doing well. Thank you for the mesage an for keeping in touch,..Take care and God bless.
