Last night I sent a tearful plea to two of my friends I went to school with.
Today they resonded with wonderful replys.They understood and are supportive.I am so blessed to have them as friends.I posted the blog here that I posted on myspace that was the spark to send them a message explaining a little more of what went on with me in school.I do not know how to be social.They are willing to teach me.The first step to fixing a problem is to know there is one.God Bless my caring and loving friends.
Hello.I am a stay at home mom to a great "old kid" (11).I am also a wife.I was married July 4th 2006.I have been with my husband for 9 years.I have a small zoo:3 little dogs,3 ferrets, and a betta fish.I love animals.I love to go to the gym and workout.I blog!Please read it to find out more.If you have any questions please feel free to ask.
As posted on myspace for my friends I just got back
Men.Thats right the one thing I have been chasing since I was 12 is also my biggest mistake.I neglected my friends.It took just now to get many of them back.Thats thanks to one of them.I honestly dont see why they would want to be my friend.I was a whore and white trash.I thought those boys loved me and would be with me forever.I moved too fast.Nobody tryed to stop me.My mother did no teach me a thing about it.Sex distroyed my life.When I did meet a man who could slow me down it was just about too late.Its ok now.He loves me and we are doing well after 9 years.I lived in a nasty single wide when I was in school.There is no way I would have let them know where I lived.I was so ashamed of it.I had ratty clothes.One of my friends once asked me why I dressed the way I did.I could not tell her the truth...I was poor.How could I?Now I am still not wealthy.I plan on doing what I can to keep their friendship and to make me seem better.There is no way to hide who I was and who I am.I wont try to hide it.We are all adults now.I just pray I will be able to fit in and not seem stupid.After all this is the first time I have truly had real friends.I dont want to mess it up.
Last week I seen a AD on CraigsList looking for part time kennel help.It was a little bit away.I answered it.I got no responce and thought they must have hired someone else and moved on.After all I was not realy looking for a job.I have been thinking I would like some thing to do.Being a Stay At Home mom to a big kid is boring.All day he is at school.I often think what other ladies that live like me do.I imagine them having a daily get to gether with other women their age like sex in the city.I have no real life friends.They all live in this box.I sit around in PJ's all day and feel sorry for myself.Thats no good.I need a bit of a change.The kennel I replyed to sent my reply to another kennel closer to me.I was called in for a interview and spent 2 hours talking the lady's ear off.She did not seem to mind.Most of the dogs seem to love me already.This is going to be a wonderful thing for me.The money I get paid is a extra.It will pay for the gas to get their and the stuff that I need.I have not had a new pair of jeans in 5 years.Thats the first thing I plan on buying.I prayed for God to give me a friend and he did.Maybe I should have asked for the human kind.lol!It even comes with a paycheck.I cannot wait til monday!
Today was my first day (9/29).It was great!I swept and moped out the puppy room.I moved things to clean under them.She was impressed with that.She said she never does that.I swept and moped out a barn.The floors are wodden.It was alot of work and well worth it.I got all icky.I am going to loose weight with this job.It was well worth it.I'm going to save the money for a few weeks so I have some cash! I told Mary (boss) about my up coming surgery.She did not seem to mind that I will have to take time off for it.*sigh* I'm happy for that.I was worried she'd let me go.
The LORD is my Shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside quiet waters, He restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever. Amen.
Our Father in heaven,
holy be your Name,
your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as in heaven.
Give us today our daily bread.
Forgive us our sins
as we forgive those who sin against us.
Do not bring us to the test
but deliver us from evil.
For the kingdom, the power,
and the glory
are yours now and for ever.
Please take the time to read the above prayer before reading my words.If you have read my blog at all you know I have been trying to have a baby for years with my husband.Last night as normal I could not sleep.I decided to watch some TV.I seen a lady on a big christian network site.She was showing and talking about people being healed by the loving hands of the Lord.She went to villages and cured the def.I belive in the power of the Lord.Could this work for me?I dont see why not.Could we all choose a time and pray that my tubes will be healed and no scar tissue and disease will be found in my tubes?God works in ways we will never understand.If you find me to be greedy for wanting this feel free to leave your words in a comment or in the shouts in my page.Maybe you know some thing I do not.If you think this is a wonderful idea lets get together in the shouts of my profile page and talk about this wonderful gift!
July 03, 2008
Hi Amanda,
Its me Bambi. I'm still not shore how to use this site yet, I do hope i'm doing this right,
I do hope your having a wonderful day my friend,
Take care,
Bambi.
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